
My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. Psalm 62:1
How is your soul today? Mine needed rest, so while I couldn't resist the desire to create (and check in with my email), I allowed myself some time to read.
Do you ever feel the need to take a moment, a step back from all that's happening around you, to care for your soul? What does soul care look like for you? What does it feel like for you? I have a little settee in my studio, with lots of loose pillows and a big, oh so soft Barefoot Dreams blanket that I snuggle up with, with my preferred choice of soul care . . . reading. I love the opportunity to quiet my mind and body, settle in and seek within. My reads run the mill of good fiction that brings some new or valuable insight to my spirit.
This is my current read:
Dramatic title, I know - but dramatic times sometimes call for dramatic measures. While the heartbeat of life continues, work and creative expression are abundantly flowing, and we all have our health, there are many changes afoot in my life right now - the BIG kind of changes.
I have always been one to lean into change, to welcome it and not resist it. They say most of us resist change. Do you? I think my willingness to lean into it is that I know it's inevitable, and I am always eager to get to the other side of change, to settle in - until the next change occurs.
I find myself thinking about the changes that are forthcoming in my life, and while I am willing to lean into them, anxiety cannot help but bubble to the surface, and boil below because I cannot see what is to come, just that it is with absolute certainty coming. My anxiety is calmed tho, to a mere presence, a subtle awareness, because I know now that I don't need to see what is to come (but I confess I would peek if there were a crystal ball rolling around!). I know, I trust that He (as in God) will lead the way for me, and for my still young daughters.
Breaking open is never easy. Yet, like the seed with the bloom inside awaiting to burst into being, we must if we are to live the life God designed for us - and that my friends has always been my desire - to live the life God created me for.
Among the many whispers of wisdom bestowed upon me recently, is the fact that He believes in me! I have always believed in him, the difference now, is that I have learned to be so completely vulnerable as to now know with all of my being that He believes in me! I may be breaking open, and life as I know it may be significantly changing - but He knows exactly what's coming. I now have the ability - the strength and the courage -
to let go
and
to relax my life grip to my life line
because I know He is forever tethered to me and will never, ever let me go.
Changes, difficulties, challenges, and painful experiences are a part of our human experience. We have a choice everytime one graces our doorstep -
dispair or hope (I choose hope)
anger or love (I choose love)
go thru it or grow thru it (I choose to grow thru it).
When I was a little girl, I wrote this silly poem that still resonates within me and I suppose is indicitive of my nature - eager to get to the other side of change, where the rainbow shines bright:
"Thoughts of yesterday, today and tomorrow
an empty page, a favorite pen and a quiet lingering mood
mixed emotions filtering thru a prism
and on the other side,
a rainbow."
(photo credit here)
Where ever you find yourself right now, with what ever breaking open experiences, I hope . . .
